beckie_k

so I missed out on all the halloween funness this year. no bonfire, no parties, no band. all because my radiator blew on my car. sometimes I long for the days of horses. gah.  I also killed 11 baby rats yesterday. so on a whole yesterday kinda sucked. finding out the radiator was done and cervical dislocation are never fun first thing in the morning (especially before coffee). but at least my snake has food for a while. ahh circle of life in action. I'm still trying to determine where the car is in it's circle of life. I hope not on the dieing part.

but on an upnote, I have an idea for a story. I shall attempt to put it to paper today. should be interesting. I kind of wish I had a little dictation gnome to write for me so I could just talk the story out. I could also use said dictation gnome to jot down my to do list, my idea list and my schedule of events. hhmmm, maybe I need more of a gnome personal assistant. it would be great if I could pay him cookies or something. 

I'm a teeny bit disturbed by the skitzo ferret that is the creative mood. I would have just given the little guy a painters cap or a brush or something.

 

does anyone wonder why their brain works the way it does? does anyone care? are we, as a species, hardwired for defeat?

it seems like some days I am sitting on top of things, minding my own bidness, and then WHAMMO! WTF?!?!?

sometimes my brain is twisted in snarls.

and sometimes I feel like an emo biotch.

k. done.

soooo...a only a month and a half have passed...I'm doing well.

why is it that I think of all sorts of things to write about but never when I am here writing?

any suggestions?

holyjeez...

this is going to be more complicated than I originally thought...

DAMN YOU AGENT J!!!!! DAMN YOU!!!!!!

herm, I have been informed that I should keep a live journal.

I've tried this before.

I'm awful at journaling.

I need many reminders.

here it goes again...